Getting Ready

Well the new semester is getting closer and is accompanied by so much excitement and angst that I'm starting to go a little crazy in anticipation! I bought most of my books last week and had orientation for my program. I've been full of nerves ever since. There were so many people at orientation and many of them were so much older than me - it's definitely going to be a new experience. I'm pretty intimidated by the course load and the proximity in which I'll be working to renowned professors. I've been trying so hard to hide from professors and attention for the past four years that now, all of a sudden, I'm getting pretty anxious about this whole experience.

But still, I'm so excited. I feel like all of a sudden I'll be working on something that will make a real difference in what I want to do. Undergrad to me was amazing, but in the same way it was so easy and filled with so many other experiences, like meeting people and working, that school wasn't always my first priority. But now...well now I'm going to have to focus and apply myself, but I'm hoping I'll be able to because I'll actually want too.

I'll be spending the rest of my weekend at home and heading back to school tomorrow night. Then next week will be dedicated to buying the rest of my books, starting my babysitting gig and grappling with the fact that my other friends have class as undergrads and I don't get to start until the week after. Confusing, but worth it, I'm sure.

Well I'm off to enjoy the rest of the weekend -- thanks for listening to my newfound angst!